Alright this is going to sound really weird but I can’t handle it anymore and I really need help and I couldn’t find anything of it on the internet. But as you have read from the title I have a irrational disgust towards dead small fish. Only the small ones for example dead whales or even big dead goldfish I just feel a little sad like any normal human would but the size of a betta fish and down is when I start to feel disgust and generally nausea in the stomach. I know it’s really weird and I also have no idea why I have this phobia because I actually find it interesting to study bigger fish and I want to become a marine biologist in the future so this is a pretty big problem for me. But as I said I just feel sick seeing one I don’t know if it is because of them being small or laying on it‘s side or floating in the water but it makes me feel horrible. The weird thing is when I imagine a dead frog on land I feel normal but when I imagine one in the water I just get horrified of the images. Also for example I have guppies. I originally didn’t really want them because of this phobia but my aunt kinda pushed them on me and I felt bad for them so I was taking really good care for them and they where all active and healthy. One day my aunt decided to give me another guppy but what I didn’t know was that it was in the last stage of dropsy and was about to die. I noticed that evening it wasn’t doing well and I knew the next day that it was dead. But I was to scared to look for it in my aquarium because of my phobia and I had to get my mom and sister to look for her. It was horrible but I just couldn’t handle it. She also had to do this for another guppy who passed away. But recently I tried to get over my phobia. I was transferring some baby guppies but sadly one really young one passed away probably because it was still a bit to weak and I did my best not to go away and finish the job of transferring the fish. I felt nauseous the whole time I was transferring the baby‘s and almost had to puke at the end that‘s how bad it is. Weirdly I don’t have this with snails and a lot less with shrimp, I still feel uncomfortable with them. I don’t know why and you probably don’t even know what you’ve just read but I’m honestly at a loss and have no idea what to do. I really want to be able to keep small fish but with this it’s almost impossible. Does anyone know what I can possibly do to cure this phobia? I feel like I can only talk about this anonymously because it’s so weird and I feel embarrassed . Any sort of help would be appreciated I know most of your probably wouldn’t know what to do as it’s kinda not related to the usual fish topics on the forum. Sorry for the really long story but I just had to write it all out. I do feel kinda better now.