I Just Euthanized My Fish

I don't really know how to start this. As the title suggests I just had to euthanize one of my fish and I know a lot of people are like "who cares? It's just a fish!" but they're not just fish to me. I call them my children, I talk to them, even throughout the whole process of euthanasia I was talking to Neptune and telling her how much I love her and that she was going to go to sleep and when she woke up she'd be in Heaven with the biggest, happiest school of cories she could ever imagine.
I know I probably sound a little crazy, but I really love my fish. I guess the reason I'm posting this is because this is how I handle grief and I don't really have anyone to talk to about it, so I guess posting it on here is helping me get these feelings off my chest.
This is the first time I've ever had to put a fish down, and honestly I think it was the tiniest bit harder than putting a dog or cat to sleep. When you put a dog or cat down the vet does the work and you can just focus on comforting your pet while they go, but with a fish you play both roles. This doesn't mean I love my dogs less than my fish, I love all of my animals equally.
I haven't buried her yet, but I found a good spot in the backyard where my German Shepherd won't dig up the little box/coffin thing I made and I found a sunflower seed that I was going to try to plant next to her grave.
I'm sorry that this was so long and all over the place, I'm just upset and a little distracted.

 

I don't really know how to start this. As the title suggests I just had to euthanize one of my fish and I know a lot of people are like "who cares? It's just a fish!" but they're not just fish to me. I call them my children, I talk to them, even throughout the whole process of euthanasia I was talking to Neptune and telling her how much I love her and that she was going to go to sleep and when she woke up she'd be in Heaven with the biggest, happiest school of cories she could ever imagine.
I know I probably sound a little crazy, but I really love my fish. I guess the reason I'm posting this is because this is how I handle grief and I don't really have anyone to talk to about it, so I guess posting it on here is helping me get these feelings off my chest.
This is the first time I've ever had to put a fish down, and honestly I think it was the tiniest bit harder than putting a dog or cat to sleep. When you put a dog or cat down the vet does the work and you can just focus on comforting your pet while they go, but with a fish you play both roles. This doesn't mean I love my dogs less than my fish, I love all of my animals equally.
I haven't buried her yet, but I found a good spot in the backyard where my German Shepherd won't dig up the little box/coffin thing I made and I found a sunflower seed that I was going to try to plant next to her grave.
I'm sorry that this was so long and all over the place, I'm just upset and a little distracted.

I'm sorry for your loss. I had to euthanize s couple and its not fun. I have a little spot to bury them. In glad your fish was loved.

 

I'm so sorry for your loss. I love my fish Bandit and Z the same way too, I know it sounds silly to some people but I do have always had a very close connection to all of the pets I kept. I talk to my fish a lot, and when they pass away I put them in little cloth sachets in flowerpots and add some wildflower or hummingbird seed mix.

Again, I am sorry that you had to put your fish down - it isn't easy to do, I almost had to do it before and I felt so guilty about it. I hope you feel better.

 

You have come to the right place. We that love our fish understand what you are feeling. I am sorry for your loss.

 

I am told our favorite pets have short lives to help teach us about mortality ?
I am told we don't deal well with it or grieving .
I have come to agree and consider each pet life I have touched to be a learning experience and a gift from the animal involved ..
Fish have actually helped me a lot with mortality ..
Strange I know ?
Sorry about your fish ..

 

When I lost my boys, I cried for 3 days
Sorry

 

To validate your feelings, it is very hard to be the one doing the putting to sleep. But just the same as with a cat or dog, it is the most loving thing you can do for a dear pet who does not have a quality of life. I’m truly sorry you had to say goodbye to Neptune. I know how your heart aches.

 

I just want to say thank y'all for being so sweet, it really does make me feel better knowing that people understand.

 

I am so sorry for your loss. I teared up reading your post. People who do not have fish don't get it. But we do. *hugs* Loss is never easy. I suggest burying your pet near a tree or bush, that way when it blooms next spring, your fish lives on helping the plant.

My pet bird I had for 21 years, Nanday Consure named Sydney is buried under a Japanese Maple. He is never lost to me as he is now part of that tree and life, just differently. it's been nearly 10 years and it's my Sydney tree.